`Sugar Coated Delusions`

January 31, 2019

The Butterfly

Filed under: Main — rhycel @ 2:51 pm

Once there was a
butterfly
in my palm..

but i let it fly away..

Not because i dont love it..

but because i wanted it
to enjoy with
flowers and the bees..

Keeping it in my palm
wont make it the best
butterfly it can be..

so from a distance..

im happier watching it
fly and play in the
garden while the sun is
still shining..

because when the rain comes..

i know..

if it truly loves me..

it will fly back to me…

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January 30, 2019

LIFE and LOVE explained…

Filed under: Main — rhycel @ 5:21 pm

Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.

First person is you,

Second person is the one you love most,

Third person is the one who love you most,

And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with…

In life, initially, you will meet the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves YOU most. When you experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.

The one you love most doesn’t love you.

The one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.

And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

Which person are you in other people’s life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.

At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.

But when he doesn’t love you anymore, he really doesn’t love you anymore.

When he loves you, he cant pretend that he doesn’t.

Same goes, when he loves you no more, there’s no way he can pretend he loves you.

When a person doesn’t love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love him. If you also don’t love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride.

If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves mot, not stop him from it.

If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don’t love him, and if you don’t love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

LOVE IS NOT POSSESSIVE.

If you like the moon, you cant just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you.

In other words, when you love a person, you may use another method of possessing the person.

Let him become a permanent memory in your life.

If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for his good points, and the bad. You can’t wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him. If he can’t change to become what you like him to be, you don’t love him anymore.

When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him.

You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad, you will wish to have this person to be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria.

In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.

Being away form each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn’t strong, then you can only admit defeat.

Real love will never become hate. When two people are in love, they love to ask each other to swear, to make promises… Why do they ask each other to swear and promise? Because they don’t trust each other, they don’t trust their lover.

These swear and promises are useless:

“Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!”

We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry. Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?

Be careful when making promises; don’t make promises that you cannot keep. Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually. Remember, swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching?

In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;

The one saying doesn’t believe; the one listening also doesn’t believe.

“Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have…”

Far Away – Nickleback

Filed under: Main — rhycel @ 10:55 am

This time, this place misused, mistakes
Too long, too late, who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance, just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know you know, you know

That I love you I have loved you all along and I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all I’d give for us
Give anything, but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know you know, you know

That I love you I have loved you all along and I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore

So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted, I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed, I need to hear you say
That I love you, I have loved you all along
And I forgive you, for being away for far too long
So keep breathing, ’cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, ’cause I’m not leaving you anymore

Believe it, hold on to me and
Never let me go, keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go (Keep breathing)
Hold on to me and never let me go

January 29, 2019

Collection of Thoughts

Filed under: Main — rhycel @ 2:21 pm

Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone she/he loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again. But sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring back to life a relationship that just died a natural death.
Set your self free. Let your heart spread its wings and fly.
Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It’s never too late. Remember, you may find love and lose it but…

“WHEN LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT.”

Remember, you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The
best way to weigh a relationship is out it in the test of fire. You
cannot be a sooner of your mistake forever.
Remember, we all fall and make wrong decisions but our blunders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process. With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out.

We learn to be UNSELFISH AND GIVE MORE THAN WE CAN.

And when everything doesn’t end well, we learn how it
feels like to fall and get hurt. But learning doesn’t have to end there. After our fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that…

LIFE DOESN’T END WHERE OUR HEARTACHES BEGIN
THERE IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND
SELFISHNESS.

It’s true, there is life in love. But, there can still
be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find your self again. The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that…

HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF
CHOICE.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon
someone so nice and beautiful and we just find our selves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions.
The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

“YOU DON’T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE.
WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOURSELF.
YOU WOULD BE BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING.”

Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let
your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.

IF YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN’T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED
IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT
THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE
WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU.

And when it does, pray that it may be the love that
will stay and last a lifetime. A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumbled upon the right man when what she just found is only someone to cover up for the love she lost. A man who makes a promise with words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them.

ITS TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER
BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE
WHO DOESN’T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL.

Love makes us see things through rose-colored glasses. Most of the time, we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our way. This feeling you have nurtured for so long isn’t healthy anymore. You must realize that you have to let go now before it consumes you and your sanity. There is always a time to think and stop. A time to be sensible and not allow our hearts to rule over our heads.

I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOT IN THE ARMS OF A MAN WHO
KEEPS ME WAITING BUT IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE WHO WILL TAKE ME NOW AND LOVE ME FOREVER.

If loving a person who attached to someone else is a
crime, then maybe many of us would have been jailed long before we realize what its consequences could have been.
Loving someone is never a sin. It is what people do
out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin.

DON’T THINK ONLY OF YOUR FEELINGS, FOR REAL LOVE
DOESN’T HAVE A PLACE FOR SELFISH PEOPLE.

When there is love, there is always sacrifice.
When we love someone, we never easily give up on that
person. Even if we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive.
Loving too much doesn’t hurt. It is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered.

DON’T WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER
REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD HAVE FELT. OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOURSELF THE CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND THE SACRIFICE.

Just like anything else, our love grows weak and dies
if not taken cared of. It can keep up with pain only to a certain
extent. Beyond that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies.

GOD WAKES US UP IN THE MIDST OF A STORM TO TEACH US A LESSON. HE TAKES AWAY PEOPLE WE LOVE, SO WE CAN LEARN TO VALUE LOVE ITSELF. HE MAKES US CRY SO HARD SO WE CAN SEE CLEARLY WHEN WE OPEN OUR EYES. HE MAKES US BITTER SO WE CAN REALIZE THAT THERE IS NO GENUINE HAPPINESS IF WE THINK ONLY OF OUR NEEDS AND NOT OF OTHERS?

Relationships built on jealousy and selfishness are doomed from the very beginning. The hardest part of losing love is letting go and moving on. Most of us cry endlessly over things that could
have been but never will be.
God allows us to experience pain to make us stronger and better persons. He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our lives and only if we put our trust in Him can we learn to find joy in our tears and happiness in our sorrows.
In many failed relationships, separation comes as the
inevitable choice but moving on always proves to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, the end of a relationship is imposed on us, but our choice to hold on is always beyond the control of circumstance.
Letting go is a decision that can never be dictated on us. It is
a resolve we make ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and Time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadow, there will always be light after our darkest and loneliest moments. There is always a hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try.

LOSING SOMEONE WE LOVE MAY NOT BE A LOSS AT ALL
BUT A BLESSING BECAUSE SOMEONE EVEN MORE DESERVING IS
YET TO COME.

There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but…

WE MUST ALWAYS BE SENSITIVE TO THE SIGNALS THAT TELL
US WHEN TO RATIONALIZE AND BE SENSIBLE.

There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for
someone who wouldn’t be as interested as we are because his
attention is focused on someone else. There are many times when we love but don’t get loved in return.

THERE ARE TIMES WHEN THE SIGN AHEAD SAYS STOP BUT WE
STILL STUBBORNLY HEAD ON.

We would say our love is unconditional. But if it really is, then we
should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about.

“BEING IN LOVE CAN BE THE MOST WONDERFUL THING WE
COULD EXPERIENCE BUT IF THE FEELING BEGINS TO CONSUME OUR WHOLE BEINGS, THEN WE HAVE TO STOP AND LET OUR MINDS AND NOT OUR HEARTS DICTATE OUR ACTIONS. ONLY WHEN WE LEARN TO ACCEPT OUR FATE AND UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF OUR FAILURES CAN WE TRULY GO ON WITH LIFE WITHOUT HAVING TO LOOK BACK AND CRY OVER THE THINGS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT WILL NEVER BE…”

January 18, 2019

When Mr Right comes at the wrong time – Janice Wong

Filed under: Main — rhycel @ 2:26 pm

“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take any thing for granted. ”
“A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle.”
“A wrestling match.”
“which side wins?”
“Love wins. Love always wins.”
– Morrie Schwartz

A real life experience taken from a news article, posted by saving bond and reposted here………cos lot of relationships are caught in-between this tension of opposites………..
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When Mr Right comes at the wrong time
Timing is everything, even in love. And when you are not ready to commit, you could end up regretting it

By Janice Wong

SOMETIMES, timing rather than love decides who we end up being with – or without.

Only some lucky people marry the loves of their lives. The rest marry the most suitable person who comes along when they are ready to settle down.

A friend in his 20s came to this conclusion after confiding in me that he had recently met a woman who is more attractive than his wife, and so occupies his thoughts more often than his wife does.

‘If only I had met her before I got married,’ he said wistfully.
But I think even if the love of one’s life appears when one is single, one may not be in the right frame of mind to recognise him or her as such. And then love passes by.

Life is littered with near misses and lost opportunities.
I attended my ex-boyfriend’s wedding last month, which triggered many memories.

We met five years ago when I was 23 and he 31. It was love at first sight. He had an established career, was down-to-earth and steadfastly religious. I was then working as an air stewardess and my head was – literally and metaphorically – in the clouds.

I was also – well, let’s put it this way – not religious.
Despite our differences, we were soulmates. We had the same quirky sense of humour and shared long, intense overnight conversations.

But human nature is perverse. When someone is excessively nice to us, we start taking things for granted, instead of appreciating them even more. My ex sent me to the airport, fixed my PC, reminded me to take health supplements – and go to church.

He had everything I could want in a husband – except that I was not looking for one. A boyfriend was all I could cope with then.
I loved fast cars, danced wildly at Zouk and took off on shopping holidays at a whim. My life revolved around I, me and myself.

In the six months that we were together, he popped the question several times and talked ad nauseam about having children. He wanted us to enrol for a Christian marriage preparation course.

Yes, I did often fantasise about a Vera Wang wedding gown, but I was at that stage of my life when I was more interested in Guess than Baby Guess.

And where – dare I admit it? – I still wanted to meet other men.
So I was a 23-year-old with the emotional maturity of a 13-year-old.

Responsibility? Wasn’t that for adults?

In short, I met Mr Right at the wrong time.

The more he talked about marriage and religion, the more I felt pressured and the more pressured I felt, the more irritable I became.

I was too impatient to compromise. Every trivial matter blew up as a big deal. My mood obliterated the good in our relationship and reached a point where I just wanted out.

He was heartbroken; I was sad but relieved. He still called me regularly, beseeching me to change my mind.The calls stopped finally after a year. Now and then, we say ‘Hi’ via e-mail.
I had a few painful relationships after that. Served me right, as those rude wake-up calls were necessary for me to realise the meaninglessness of my hedonistic high life. I missed the tenderness of my ex and began having second thoughts.

Perhaps I also felt more urgency to find someone marriageable before my biological clock reached zero hour. It dawned on me that I am not a pixie like Peter Pan who can flirt around forever. One day, I’d wake up sick and alone when my fair weather friends flit away.

But I was too proud and too unsure of my ex’s reaction to call him until last year. The first thing he told me excitedly was that he had found The One. My heart tumbled to my feet. So, that’s Fate.
If only I could turn back time. If only I had met him later. If only… what feeble words.

These days, I am more circumspect. I have come to terms with my loss. There is nothing I can do about timing, but I can do everything about my choices.

Sometimes, when the nights get lonely, I toy with the idea of marrying a platonic friend of mine, who often assures me earnestly that, if the worst comes to the worst, he’d be willing to marry me.

But I always dismiss that. I have already made one mistake. I should not make another by settling for second best merely for the sake of getting hitched – only to regret it soon after, as the guy who confided in me did.

Hopefully, the best is not over but yet to be.

December 11, 2018

Just Take My Heart – Mr. Big

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 11:09 am

It’s late at night and neither one of us is sleeping
I can’t imagine living my life after you’re gone
Wondering why so many questions have no answers
I keep on searching for the reason why we went wrong

Where is our yesterday
You and I could use it right now
But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go
I don’t have the need for it anymore
I’ll always love you, but you’re too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

Here we are about to take the final step now
I just can’t fool myself, I know there’s no turning back
Face to face it’s been an endless conversation
But when the love is gone you’re left with nothing but talk

I’d give my everything
If only I could turn you around
But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go
I don’t have the need for it anymore
I’ll always love you, but you’re too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

December 10, 2018

Porque – Maldita

Filed under: Main — rhycel @ 1:08 pm

[VERSE 1]
Tulala lang sa ‘king kuwarto
At nagmumuni-muni
Ang tanong sa ‘king sarili
Sa’n ako nagkamali?

[REFRAIN]
Bakit sa’yo pa nagkagusto?
Parang bula ika’y naglaho…

[CHORUS]
Porque contigo yo ya escoji?
Ahora mi corazon ta sufri
Bien simple lang I yo tapidi
Era cin ti tu el cosa yo ya cin ti…

Tapidi milagro
Vira’l tiempo
El mali hace derecho
Na di mio reso
Tapidi yo
Era ol vida yo contigo…

[VERSE 2]
Ang lahat ay binigay ko
Ngayon ay sising-sisi
Sobra-sobra ang parusa
Di alam kung kaya pa…

[REFRAIN]
Bakit sa’yo pa nagkagusto?
Parang bula ika’y naglaho…

[CHORUS]
Porque contigo yo ya escoji?
Ahora mi corazon ta sufri
Bien simple lang I yo tapidi
Era cin ti tu el cosa yo ya cin ti…

Tapidi milagro
Vira’l tiempo
El mali hace derecho
Na di mio reso
Tapidi yo
Era ol vida yo contigo…

[BRIDGE]
Huwag nang lumapit, o tumawag pa
At baka masampal lang kita
Di babalikan, magsisi ka man
Ako ay lisanin…

Porque contigo yo ya escoji?
Ahora mi corazon ta sufri
Bien simple lang I yo tapidi
Era cin ti tu el cosa yo ya cin ti…

[CODA]
Bakit ikaw pa ang napili?
Ngayon ang puso ko ay sawi
Kay simple lang ng aking hiling
Na madama mo rin ang pait at pighati…

Sana’y magmilagro
Mabalik ko
Mali ay mai-diretso
‘Pinagdarasal ko
Sa ‘king puso
Na mabura ka sa isip ko…

December 5, 2018

Meantime Guy

Filed under: Main — rhycel @ 5:07 pm

*orig post: http://mframa.tumblr.com/post/3120227611/meantime-boy

He’s the one that drunk dials you late at night saying that he loves you over and over again until 3 in the morning. He means it but you know too well he’ll never admit it. He’s the one that makes it seem alright that your jerk boyfriend is cheating on you. He’s the one you love but not really “in” love with. You know the one who’s just there in the meantime.

He’s the one you were with on that night you swore never happened.

He’s just chill, doesn’t pressure you with commitment. He doesn’t make a fuss when you go out to party with your girlfriends. And when you get piss drunk, he’s there to drive you home and hold your hair when you vomit.

You don’t have to pretend that you’re cool because he knows how much of a dork you really are.

You don’t have to be made up and all poised around him because you know that he’d hang out with you even if you had the flu and you spent 3 days in the same pair of pajamas being smelly and unbathed with snot spewing from your swollen nose. Which he actually did while also bringing you DVDs and KFC.

It doesn’t bother you that he goes out with other girls or at least you pretend that it doesn’t. Yet you do, however, manage to point out every single flaw she has and how she’s not the right girl for him. And when he asks you who would be right for him you’d describe a girl pretty muchl like yourself but you’d never imply that it might be you.

You tell him that he’s a great guy and that he’d make some girl really happy someday just like how you pretend to be happy with your cheating ass jerk boyfriend.

And when you finally break up, he’d cancel a hot date just to be there to soak up your tears and listen to you rant about how stupid you are. To which he would agree but at the same time making you feel like it was alright to be stupid sometimes. He’d stay with you until the sun rises and until your tears dry up. He’d stay and keep you company everyday bringing you all sorts of food just to help you cope with your heart ache. And he would not care if you had gained weight or that you’ve lost all reason to shave your legs.

He’d be the first one to comment on the hundred emo notes you post on facebook just so you know someone had read them and that you’d feel that someone cared.

He’ll be there through all your unwarranted drama.

He’ll be there until you get over your jerk ex-boyfriend.

And when you finally do, he’d still be there until you find another jerk boyfriend to make you pretend to be happy.

You’re not exactly sure about how he feels about you because he never does or says anything clear. So you stay with your new jerk boyfriend. You go on with your life convincing yourself that you are the lucky one and that you are better off and happy.

But then late at night. When you know you should be sleeping.

You find yourself staying awake until 3 in the morning waiting for his call just to hear him drunkenly say that he loves you.

This Time – Freestyle

Filed under: Main — rhycel @ 11:06 am

Oh I’m sorry, girl, for causing you much pain
Didn’t mean to make you cry, make your efforts all in vain

And I apologize for all the things I’ve done
You were loving me so much but all I did was let you down

Oh, I really don’t know, just what to say
All I know is that I want you to stay

This time, I’m not gonna let you slip away
This time, I’m not gonna let another day go by
Without holding you so tight
Without treating you so right
This time, I’m not gonna let go of your love
This time, I promise you that we’ll rise above it all

And I will never let you fall
I’m gonna give you my all, this time

Oh, I never thought that I was hurting you
Now I know that I was wrong, now I know just what to do

Gonna try to be the best that I could be
All I need is one more chance to make it up to you, you’ll see

And there’s one more thing that you oughta know
All I know is that I don’t want you to go

November 26, 2018

I’ll Never Love Again – Lady Gaga (A Star Is Born)

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 3:42 pm

Wish I could, I could’ve said goodbye

I would’ve said what I wanted to

Maybe even cried for you

If I knew it would be the last time

I would’ve broke my heart in two

Tryin’ to save a part of you

Don’t wanna feel another touch

Don’t wanna start another fire

Don’t wanna know another kiss

No other name falling off my lips

Don’t wanna give my heart away

To another stranger

Or let another day begin

Won’t even let the sunlight in

No, I’ll never love again

I’ll never love again, oh, oh, oh, oh

When we first met

I never thought that I would fall

I never thought that I’d find myself

Lying in your arms

And I want to pretend that it’s not true

Oh baby, that you’re gone

‘Cause my world keeps turning, and turning, and turning

And I’m not moving on

Don’t wanna feel another touch

Don’t wanna start another fire

Don’t wanna know another kiss

No other name falling off my lips

Don’t wanna give my heart away

To another stranger

Or let another day begin

Won’t even let the sunlight in

No, I’ll never love

I don’t wanna know this feeling

Unless it’s you and me

I don’t wanna waste a moment, ooh

And I don’t wanna give somebody else the better part of me

I would rather wait for you, ooh

Don’t wanna feel another touch

Don’t wanna start another fire

Don’t wanna know another kiss

Baby, unless they are your lips

Don’t wanna give my heart away

To another stranger

Don’t let another day begin

Won’t let the sunlight in

Oh, I’ll never love again

Never love again

Never love again

Oh, I’ll never love again

 

November 21, 2018

When I was you Man – Bruno Mars

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 2:41 pm
Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio but it don’t sound the same
When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down
‘Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
It all just sounds like ooh, ooh ooh hoo hoo
Mm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should have gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party ’cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby’s dancing
But she’s dancing with another man
My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, oh
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
It all
It all just sounds like ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Mm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should have gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party ’cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby’s dancing
But she’s dancing with another man
Although it hurts
I’ll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I’m probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers
I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours
When he has the chance
Take you to every party
‘Cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man

November 19, 2018

Tomorrow Never Comes – Norma Marek

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 5:11 pm

If I knew it would be the last time that I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly, and pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I’d see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss, and call you back for just one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action, and play them back throughout my days.
If I knew it would be the last time, I would spare an extra minute or two,
To stop and say “I love you,” instead of assuming you know I do.

So, just in case tomorrow never comes, and today is all I get,
I’d like to say how much I love you, and I hope we never will forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.

So, if you’re waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you’ll surely regret the day
That you didn’t take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear,
That you love them very much, and you’ll always hold them dear.
Take time to say “I’m sorry,” “Please forgive me,” “thank you” or “it’s okay”.

And if tomorrow never comes, you’ll have no regrets about today.

April 30, 2018

The Last Script – Wong Fu Productions

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 5:56 pm

[Girl]
Hey! How many were there before me?

[Guy]
What do you mean?

[Girl]
How many girls did you love before me?

[Guy]
Love, five, I loved five women before you.

[Girl]
What were their names?

[Guy]
Who? What? When? Where? Why?

[Girl]
Can you tell me about them?

[Guy]
Who I loved was a girl from college. I wasn’t exactly close to her, but with some superficial facts and a few interactions over a semester, you know, like most guys fantasizing over a girl they barely know, I filled in the blanks like a fairy tale author. And who she became in my head, was probably more than the reality. She was a third year sorority girl. Yeah and I was an infatuated freshman, sure, but the several times we got to spend together outside of class, it really allowed me to see she also had a good heart and a bright spirit. The only problem was, so did just about every other guy. And while she turned me down nicely, I swear there were times when it seemed like the cliche sorority girl may have felt something for the typical, awkward freshman.

What I loved was an old friend, but she was much more than just a friend. We met early in college, kept in touch through the years after. We saw each other grow and change and through multiple relationships. I saw her different boyfriends come and go. She was also there for every girlfriend and breakup of mine.

Personality, humor, taste, it was all there. Her and I were almost perfect. The only thing that wasn’t perfect was our timing. We were never single at the same time. What we loved about each other was never enough to leave who we were with. This is something we eventually had to face and accept, and we had to leave behind what we had.

When I loved was my first girlfriend in high school. It’s a bit unfair because she embodies the combination of both love and youth. The feeling of young love is unique and impossible to replace or replicate because we can only be that age once. High school was a time of innocence, discovery, and adventure. We shared these three elements together in things like our first kiss, late night sneaking out, and matinee movies, all of which now have become a nostalgic love, preserved in a time neither of us can touch, but know was there. Even though we were just kids, there’s not a doubt in my mind that when we were there, we were in love.

Where I loved was the girl I met in Los Angeles. I never intended to stay there that long. It was just a six month internship after graduating. But it all changed when I met her. Soon, a year had passed, and somehow, another year after that. I couldn’t leave the city. I couldn’t leave her. Maybe it was my desire to be on my own or prove something to everyone back at home, but she helped me accomplish it over there with a relationship reflective of the city we were in, an new energy, new experiences, that really pushed me to mature more than anyone or anywhere else. When people ask what city I love the most, I say LA. The city where I lived the most.

Why I loved was a close friend of mine who passed away. She told me after she was diagnosed that death was not what saddened her the most, but the fact that she never really felt like she had fallen in love. She wouldn’t get to have them emotions, good and bad, of being hurt and of being held. After she passed, those words stuck with me the most, teaching me to see that one of the great gifts we have of being alive is the ability to give and receive and even lose love. There are so many like her, whose lives end before having any of those experiences. What a waste if we don’t strive to love in our lives. She made me understand why. Why waste this life not loving?

[Girl]
I understand now.

[Guy]
You’re the sixth.

[Girl]
Sixth, so which one am I then?

[Guy]
You’re none of them because you’re all of them. You are who I love; the girl on the pedestal, the fantasy the make-believe things that are actually true. You are what I love; the depth, the inside jokes, the best friend. You are when I love; a new history is being started with you. We are the young lovers our older selves will someday reminisce about. You are where I love: because I’d go anywhere, just to be with you. You are why I love: because before you, I didn’t truly understand what I was looking for. Now that we found each other, you’ve given my past and future meaning. You are the sixth. You are the last.

[Guy]
So, how many were there before me?

[Girl]
Five is all.

[Guy]
What were their names?

[Girl]
Who? What? When? Where? Why?

April 4, 2018

Kayla Gow ft Tropical Acoustics – Tell Me Why

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 5:03 pm

Kayla Gow ft Tropical Acoustics – Tell Me Why

 

Something ’bout the way you look at me,

There’s just something ’bout the way you smile

Its kinda like a cool breeze on a summer day

Cause with you, everything’s alright

 

Tell me ‘how you make it feel so easy

Coz with you I never had to try

And even when i’m close to tears, i laugh

Coz something about you is driving me wild

 

but when you’re looking at me, I can’t breathe,

I can’t find the words to speak.And I… I don’t know why

But with you, I flyAnd I just want you to know that

 

Chorus:

Your eyes, they spin me around and take me off the ground.

You make me feel things only you know how.

Wish you knew what you mean to me

tell myself to keep it all inside

Coz I know that you will never be mine… tell me why…

Your eyes, they spin me around and take me off the ground

You make me feel things only you know how.

And though, I know we will never be…I’ll pretend that i’m doing just fine…

Coz I know this can only end in goodbye.

 

Tell me why 2x

 

I don’t know why my heart starts to race,

It’s a mystery when you’re here with me.

Boy i’m falling and I can’t stop now

Baby please, please, please be there to catch me.

 

but when you’re looking at me, I can’t breathe,

I can’t find the words to speak.And I… I don’t know why

But with you, I fly And I just want you to know that

 

Chorus

 

Pre-Chorus:

Coz when you’re looking at me, I can’t breathe,

I can’t find the words to speak.And I… I don’t know why

But with you, I flyAnd I just want you to know that

 

Chorus:

Your eyes, they spin me around and take me off the ground.

You make me feel things only you know how.

Wish you knew what you mean to meI tell myself to keep it all inside

Because I know that you will never be mine… So tell me why…

Your eyes, they spin me around and take me off the ground

You make me feel things.

Only you know how.Wish I could finally make you see

But all you ever do is look away

So I guess there’s nothing left to say

 

Tell me why 2x

 

April 1, 2018

Strangers Again Script credits to WongFu Productions

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 10:26 am

We’re just wasting time.

And now you think I’m stupid.

You know I don’t think that, Marissa.

You don’t say it but I know you’re thinking it.

Well of course I’m thinking it right now! This whole thing is stupid!

See?

See what? It is! Who cares if I wanna leave early? Even you barely know her and you’re mad at me?

Yah! ‘Coz you think I’m annoying you!

Oh my God, this isn’t even about us! This is about your co-worker’s lame potluck that you feel obligated to go to because she has no friends. If we go, that counts! We don’t have to stay the whole four hours.

But it is about us! It’s about you understanding what’s important to me!

Eating homemade potato salad and playing the scrabble tournament is important to you?

This is stupid.

That’s what I just said!

YOU’RE stupid.

You know what, I’m willing to let that one go, can you just tell me if we can leave early or not, please?

Josh, you tell me.

*whispers* What?

Look, I’m sorry I brought it up. Can you just decide and I’ll do whatever?

No, Josh, not this time. I’m not gonna tell you what to do because you’re just gonna use it against me saying ‘I always do what you say.’ No more.

Hey, this one wasn’t my fault. There’s no reason for this.

You’re right. There is no reason for this.

It wasn’t always like this. I can’t really remember when it was but I know for sure we weren’t like this. She used to be… my unicorn. You know, unbelievable. Crazy special. The girl I thought could never exist. But, as time went on, from one stage of our relationship to the next, the path that started off so innocent and fun has taken us to that. But, like most, we started off as strangers, at Stage 1: Meeting. Thanks to a shoelace, actually.

STAGE 1: Meeting

Excuse me. Excuse me, your shoelaces are untied.

Oh! Thanks.

No prob. WhenIshudowhhp… Tsss… Woah.

I could have not planned it better even if I tried. But thank goodness the city hadn’t fixed their park trails in five years.

I didn’t tell her that it was my first time running in about nine months and somehow, we ended up going for almost five miles that day. It’s so pathetic to see how guys would do just about anything for the right girl, but it paid off because I got her number.

We really hit it off that day. I think so, at least. I blacked out for a few minutes but when I woke up, I remembered I made a pretty good connection. From that point on, we were at Stage 2: The Chase. Some say it’s the best part.

STAGE 2: The Chase

All I wanted was to know more about her.

All I wanted to do was to hang out with her.

Ready?

*sigh* Ohhhh….

The only person I wanted to talk to was her.

She was the number one priority.

What the hell, man?

And every time I saw her, butterflies.

She was everything that I thought could be perfect in a girl. And as soon as it felt right,

Would you be my girlfriend?

Yeah.

With this simple word, we began our relationship, taking us into Stage 3: The Honeymoon.

STAGE 3: The Honeymoon

Everyone calls it this, and for good reason. It was the time when we could finally fully express our affection to each other and do all the things we wanted to do as a couple. It was a dream come true. The girl I wanted to be with so, so badly was finally mine. But eventually, the fire cooled and both of us simmered down to normalcy. By the end of it all, we had a bajillion pictures with each other, knew every detail of our everyday lives, and like any normal healthy couple, we entered Stage 4: Comfortable.

STAGE 4: Comfortable

What do you wanna do tonight?

I dunno. Whatever.

Now, being comfortable isn’t necessarily bad. It’s when we could truly be ourselves. But it depends on what you do with that comfort. Some use it positively, continuing to work at their relationship and grow together, but others allow it to create distance and, for Marissa and I, it made us take each other for granted.

Hey! What are you doing? It’s Tuesday, why aren’t you dressed?

Oh, yeah. I totally forgot. Can we skip it? I don’t feel like going.

This whole thing was your idea.

I… I know. I just kinda have other things to do. Um, next week, yeah?

Alright.

*phone ringing* You’re not gonna get that?

I’ll call her back after this level. Hey watch out!

Whether it’s taking each other for granted, or people changing over time, the bottom line is, someone stops stying and feelings aren’t as strong as before. This could happen over a few months or a few years. For us, it was one and a half years when we hit Stage 5: Tolerance.

STAGE 5: Tolerance

When Marissa and I got to this stage, I couldn’t believe it and I was pretty disappointed. Somehow, the girl I was so crazy about a year ago had turned into someone who just wasn’t that special anymore. It happened so gradually that I didn’t even see it coming but there we were, just tolerating each other.

Oh gosh. Don’t even ask me about my day.

*whispers* I won’t.

I swear my co-workers are trying to get me to quit!

*rolls eyes*

Where do you want to eat tonight?

Wherever you wanna go.

Can you just decide? I asked you.

And I’m being flexible, you pick.

Oh jeez, you’re like a five-year-old, someone else has to tell you what to do.

Normally, I’m gonna let that go but I’m having a bad day, too, so

What did you just say?

Arguing is one thing but feeling dissatisfied and unhappy with the relationship is another. We tried various times to try and make changes, to fix things but, like so many couples out there, it wasn’t enough. We became one of those relationships where it wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t great. And lemme tell you, that’s never a good way to describe a relationship.

Well, I guess I’m gonna sleep now.

Okay.

Goodnight.

Night.

It wasn’t long before we were in Stage 6: Downhill.

STAGE 6: Downhill

There’s not much time left once you’re here. The effort to try make to make things work just isn’t worth it anymore. Problems continue, arguments don’t get solved… I don’t even really remember what we argued about.

I can’t talk to you right now. You’re…

Why won’t you just…

I can’t believe that y…

Well how could you jus…

What did we argue about?

Marissa and I, sad to say, are nearing the end of this stage. What’s next is what happens to everyone at some point, the end of the line, the worst stage ever. Breaking up.

STAGE 7: Breaking Up

I don’t know when it’ll happen or how, but I hope we can leave it on good, mutual terms, if that’s ever truly possible.

I think it’s for the best.

Fine.

And this is when the two of us will start a new path, one that leads right back to where we started, strangers. The change will be so drastic and so blunt that we’ll probably wanna get back together right away just to restore what’s normal.

Hello?

Hey, Marissa. I miss you.

Are you drunk?

But this does not always happen and the distance will grow. Eventually, the two of us will move on, or find someone new.

Oh my gosh. Donald. Donald! Don… Come here! Don… Who is that? Who’s she with? Tell me who that is.

I’m sorry, man.

And even when we both get over the past and try to remain friends, things will never be the same.

Josh? Hey, it is you!

Woah, Marissa!

Hi! Nice to see you.

Yeah, you too. You still running around here?

Well, when I visit home, yeah.

Visit?

Yeah, I moved up to San Francisco a couple of months ago, but I’m just here to show my boyfriend the park.

Oh, cool.

Oh, he’s here. Josh, this is Alex. Alex, Josh.

Hi.

(daydream: *punch to left eye*)

Nice to meet you, man.

Well, uhh, we should catch up some time. I’ll text you later, OK?

Sure.

Bye.

Our lives will continue on in different directions toward the inevitable end, becoming strangers again. And everything we shared will become fragments of memories from so long ago, I’ll question if it even really happened. And all that’ll be left is this, a box of random stuff from a faded period of time when this stranger was the most important person in my life. What a shame.

“This is to remind you of how hard you fell for me when we first met. Haha. Josh, I’m so glad we have each other in our lives. I know that no matter what, we’ll make it through; and we’ll always have a tomorrow together. Happy Anniversary!”

(daydream:)

Holy crap! What the hell are you doing?

Sorry, sorry. I mean… I mean, I… I’m sorry, Marissa. It’s just… It’s just a potluck. I don’t know why I’m being so difficult.

It’s… Whatever…

No, no. It’s not whatever. It’s important to us. Not the… I mean, not the potluck. This, this is important to us, to me. Let’s not do that anymore. I’m sorry, please.

Okay.

Yeah? We’re okay?

I… I’m s-sorry. I’m being dumb. I-I’m so sorry, we’re gonna be okay, yeah?

It’s alright, babe.

(backtrack: 5 months earlier, near the end of Stage 4)

Do you realize there’s only two options for our future together? It’s either we break up or we get married.

Never really thought of that.

Think we’ll get married?

Jeez, that’s a loaded question. Why? You wanna get married to me?

I don’t know right now.

Me neither.

Do you wanna break up with me?

Of course not.

Well, it’s gonna be one or the other.

What do you think will happen if we don’t end up together? Are we gonna hate each other? D’you think we’ll keep in touch?

*sigh* I think that if life separates us and we end up in totally different places, I’ll always remember when our paths aligned for this period of time… And I’ll be thankful for that. I hope that wherever you are, you’ll be thankful, too. I think that’s the best we can wish for.

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