`Sugar Coated Delusions`

June 13, 2009

‘You’ve got to find what you love,’ Steve Jobs

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 7:38 am

Lifted out from http://news-service.stanford.edu

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said: “Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down – that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m fine now.

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960’s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

June 7, 2009

Mad by Ne-Yo

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 5:40 pm

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh…

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh…
Oh oh oh…

[Verse 1]

She’s starin’ at me,
I’m sittin’, wonderin’ what she’s thinkin’.
Mmmmm
Nobody’s talkin’,
‘Cause talkin’ just turns into screamin’.
Ohhh…
And now is I’m yellin’ over her,
She’s yellin’ over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what’s even worse).
That we don’t even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for…

[Hook]

Nothin’
(Fighting for).
Nothin’
(Crying for).
Nothin’
(Whoahhh).
But we won’t let it go for
Nothin’
(No not for)
Nothin’.
This should be nothin’ to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby…

I know sometimes
It’s gonna rain…
But baby, can we make up now
‘Cause I can’t sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don’t wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don’t want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don’t wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don’t want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no…

[Verse 2]

And it gets me upset, girl
When you’re constantly accusing.
(Askin’ questions like you’ve already known).
We’re fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain’t the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa…
[What happened to workin' it out].
We’ve falled into this place
Where you ain’t backin’ down
And I ain’t backin’ down.

So what the hell do we do now…
It’s all for…

More Lyrics at http://musicandlyricsph.com

[Hook]

Nothin’
(Fighting for).
Nothin’
(Crying for).
Nothin’
(Whoahhh).
But we won’t let it go for
Nothin’
(No not for)
Nothin’.
This should be nothin’ to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby…

I know sometimes
It’s gonna rain…
But baby, can we make up now
‘Cause I can’t sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don’t wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don’t want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don’t wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don’t want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no…

[Bridge]

Oh baby this love ain’t gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it’s gonna be.
We can’t fuss and we can’t fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we’re gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It’s gonna rain…
But baby, can we make up now
‘Cause I can’t sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don’t wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don’t want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don’t wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don’t want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no…

May 30, 2009

Susan Boyle : Pure talent!

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 10:24 am

I’m absolute speechless :)

dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he’ll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms
We cannot weather…

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

May 6, 2009

Bulilit…ang cute hehe

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March 27, 2009

The Waves

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 9:33 am

Recently we were running short on e-mail capacity as we
reached our subscriber limit. Now we are on an e-mail plan with
more capacity and much excess.
Such is life. . .

One moment you have shortage. . .
The next you have excess. . .

One day you have nothing to do. . .
The next you don’t have time to get it all done. . .

One day the refrigerator is empty and you are hungry. . .
The next you have a half eaten meal in front of you and you are
stuffed. . .

One month you’ve got money to spare and you wonder what to buy
The next you’ve got a bounced check. . .

One moment you are full of energy and can’t go to sleep. . .
The next you are drained and can’t get up. . .

One day you are the center of attention. . .
The next you wonder if anyone knows you are alive. . .

It’s the waves of life.
They carry us up and down and all around.

Money, friends, your body, your relationships, your job, and the
rest of the list, they all vary. They all go in waves.

Commercials make you believe it’s in the jazzy new car or the
big screen TV. Yes, those things can thrill you for a moment,
but it’s only a wave. After a little while, the thrill is gone.

I have always recognized that if money and things brought happiness,
then all rich people with things would be happy.

It ain’t so.

We easily see how poverty can cause unhappiness, but we are
deluded into believing that money solves all things.

Life is full of stuff. I wouldn’t trade my life with anyone,
it’s one of the most blessed that I know, but it’s still full of
stuff. One thing after another, one challenge after another,
one situation after another, day by day, never-ending . . .

It’s the waves and there is no stopping them from the outside.

You can only calm the inside, so that like a submarine, you ride
deep beneath the waves.

Though a storm is raging, you are at peace.

Most are tossed and turned by waves.
Some like the sub, ride deep beneath the daily storms in peace.
Some simply surf the waves and have a lot of fun.
Some drown.

You can’t stop the waves; it’s the nature of the ocean of life.
You can only choose which method you will use to handle them.

You can be tossed like most.
You can drown like many.
You can surf and have fun while you can, but even a surfer gets
tired and there’s nowhere to sleep on a surfboard.

To ride comfortably beneath the waves requires a ship containing
breath that is not our own.

That ship. . . is not crowded.

Peace – Be Still

March 20, 2009

Bye bye Vancouver

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 8:00 am

Leaving Vancouver today (March 19 at Canada) at 11:45 pm

What can I say…my two months in Vancouver  is  like living in a dream that you wish wouldn\’t end =D

I got to meet and make new friends, mostly my housemates ((Sumin,Laurent,Juan, Natalia( just briefly)).

Sumin left first week of  March but we still exchange mails, Juan will be leaving a week after I do, Laurent still has two months to go, Natalie left around two weeks after I arrived.  I\’ll miss the chat we do usually during dinner hehe.

Well like what one of the books I\’ve read said it\’s a \”tug of life\”.  One part of me wants to stay but another part wants to come back home. I choose to go home (back to my family that waits for me.)

Bye Burnaby, Bye Canada…

Burnaby Sign at Central PArk Kingsway

Burnaby Sign at Central Park Kingsway

March 18, 2009

Last few days in Vancouver

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 11:46 am

Two months passed by so fast and now i’m only two days away from leaving still have to pack more stuff though. It’s March 17 here at 8:45 pm, I was supposed to fly back home but there are no direct flights for March 18 and so I fly March 19.

March 17, 2009

Current Wallpaper

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March 10, 2009

Something from Mary Anne Redmacher

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 12:30 pm

live with intention

walk to the edge

listen hard

practice wellness

paly with abandon

laugh

choose with no regret

continue to learn

appreciate your friends

do what you love

live as if this is all there is

Naaalala nyo pa ba si San Chai?

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 4:37 am

Hehe wala lang, just came across a theme from meteor garden that had Tagalog lyrics.  I never thought it existed or then again I may not have paid attention to it that much.

Naalala ko din tuloy yung naging kaibigan naming si Glycel who is a deadringer to Barbie Xu ( and maybe better :) ).

Here’s the YouTube video of the Tagalized Meteor Garden theme”

 

kowts

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 12:30 am

If you were here beside me,
I would stare @ your face,
look into your eyes,
hold your hand very tight &
kiss you as I look at your face.
I would wish to God:
“… sana sakin ka na lang”

Mahirap umasa sa wala,
Mahirap magmahal ng taong may mahal ng iba,
Mahirap ipagtanggol ang taong walang pakialam sa nararamdaman mo
At higit sa lahat mahirap masaktan ng wala ka namang karapatan.

Ang puso
Nagmamahal,
Nasasaktan,
Napapagod…
Tanong ko nga sayo…
Ang puso mo ba nakakaramdam?
O baka nagpapakamanhid ka lang?

Kahit nasasaktan ang isang tao
pinipilit pa rin nyang magmahal;
Bakit? Dahil ang puso pwede mong sugatan
Pero di kayang turuan…
Patuloy itong titibok…
At patuloy na magmamahal.

Paano mo malalamang mahal mo ang isang tao?
Pag hinahanap-hanap mo sya?
Pag nami-miss mo?
Siguro nga…
Pero kung mahal mo talaga sya,
Masaya ka pag masaya sya…..
Kahit sa piling ng iba.

Pag may taong nagmamahal sayo,
Ayaw mong aminin na nahuhulog ka na sa kanya,
Natutuwa ka ‘pag andyan sya
Pero ayaw mong ipahalata.
Paano na lang kung lumayo na sya?
Di mo rin ba aamining nasasaktan ka?

Masakit ang makita mong iba
ang mahal ng taong minamahal mo…
Pero mas masakit ang magkunwaring
masaya ka para sa kanya
habang iniisip mo na:
“…sana ako nalang ang minahal nya”

“MISS NA KITA.”
…sabi ko miss na kita!
Ano ka ba naman?
Wala ka man lang bang reaksyon?
Sa bagay, miss LANG naman.
What if… I say…
“I LOVE YOU.”
Mag-react ka kaya?

Mahirap magsabi ng “SORRY”
Mahirap magsabi ng “MAHAL KITA”
Mahirap magsabi ng “KAILANGAN KITA”
Pero nalaman ko…
Pinakamahirap palang sabihin yung:
“MAHALIN MO NAMAN AKO Ohhh…
pleaseeee…!”

“People can hide all things, except for two:
One, that they are drunk.
Two, that they are in love.”

“Don’t tie your heart to a person who has nothing to offer you. You may say you’re in love, you might even say he/she is your soul mate, but is that enough to fill your need for love? let go. It might hurt for a while, but when you get over it, you’ll find it’s for the better.”

March 9, 2009

snowy sunday here in Burnaby

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 9:32 am

woke up and was shocked to see it was already 9am today…

but my mobiule phone said it was just 8am.

apparently DST started early in the morning so all clocks was advanced by an hour (sucks). By the way thanks SuMin for fixing my alarm clock (can’t get it to work :D )

After lunch I was off to Metropolis (Metrotown) actually was roaming around Metrotown, specifically Future Shop and Best Buyvto get a Mac Air for my cousin (argh… this brought my allowance to just a 100+ CAD).

Sorry for those thinking of having me buy something for them now, I won’t even be able to buy something else for myself. 

Well, you can still ask me to buy for you guys but just send me the dollars hehehe.

Was about yo hit a cab home at around 3pm here but it was snowing hard so I grabbed my cam and did some shoots of the snow for the folks back home to see as well as movies from my mobile.

March 6, 2009

Condolences to Francis M’s Family

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 1:14 am

Got the news late, since I’m currently working out of the country.  I just received the mail from an officemate regarding this.

I’m not particularly a fan of rap music but I do enjoy listening to his music.

Francis Magalona, diagnosed with leukemia last year, died Friday at 12:20 pm at the Medical City hospital in Pasig City. He was 44.

Magalona was the son of 1950’s legendary actors and celebrity couple Pancho Magalona and Tita Duran.

Launched as a teen star in the 1980s, Magalona’s career boomed with his hit rap song “Mga Kababayan,” which was included in his album “Yo!” released in 1990.

He was also the voice behind the hits “Ito ang Gusto Ko,” “Meron Akong Ano,” “Mga Praning,” and “Kaleidoscope World.”

Francis M left behind is wife Pia Arroyo and their eight children–Unna, Nicolo, Francis Jr., Isabella, Elmo, Arkin, Clara, and actress Maxene Magalona.

  To his family again, I send my condolence.

March 5, 2009

Quote =D

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 3:54 am

 

The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.

February 21, 2009

You harden there!!!!:D

Filed under: Main — melfabro @ 7:41 am

There was this Pinay named Maria who was born and
raised in Olongapo City . She met her husband, John while he was
stationed at Subic Bay Naval Base. Maria doesn’t have an excellent
command of the English language, but she and John manage to communicate.

One day, Maria decided to cook a big dinner for John, so she called John
up at work and told him to come home straight from work.

John and his co-workers had been working long hours trying to finish up
a project their admiral had assigned weeks ago, so they were excited to
finally finish it. They decided to go to the ship’s chow hall to
celebrate.

When John came home around midnight, he realized he forgot about the
dinner that Maria had made for him. As Maria came out of the kitchen,
John began to explain.

John: “Honey, I’m really sorry. The guys decided to celebrate a little
bit, so we ended up eating at the ship.”

Maria: “Ah, like that, ha? I cook the house for you, you eat the ship! “

John: “Honey, I’m really sorry.”

Maria:” Ahh! Don’t sorry to me! From now, you do your do, I do my do!
You harden there! “

[Maria 's Tagalog translation] Ah, ganon ha? Pinagluto kita dito sa
bahay, kumain ka naman sa barko! Mula ngayon, gawin mo ang gusto mong gawin, gagawin ko ang gusto kong gawin! MANIGAS KA DIYAN!
This is Maria’s story. If you didn’t find it as funny, oh well…
YOU HARDEN THERE!

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